Women often think too much...?

I guess the above title is kinda true, at least to me...for some reasons, and in some ways. Will your partner think of you as annoying if you show too much of care or concern, especially when he's far away from you? I know he won't think that way (I hope I'm right...hehe) but somehow, girls being girls, I don't know why I think that way.

Sometimes, when there's no reply after messages are sent, we often try to convince ourselves that he's probably busy or away from pc (Duhh! He does not need to be in front of the pc reporting everything to us right? I don't think that is the right thing to do). But, we can't deny the fact that we girls are actually worried or scared that he would get bored with the annoying messages and choose to ignore them... We are also worried that our messages would disturb them from work but then again, we still want to keep in touch, to know what's happening over there. I thought I was the only one having this kind of problem. But, when I spoke to a friend on this the other day, she was having the same nightmare too when her other half went on overseas trip previously.

Well, I guess this kind of situations does test one's patience and trust level? He was online, and he did receive my message yesterday. So, why was there no reply? I got a reply this morning when I logged in on Skype... It was his reply to my message but due to connection problem, the message was not sent. Part of the message written: ":( Message cannot be delivered".

So, it's simple. I was just thinking too much (due to PMS again?) and there's nothing to worry about. Solution: Just don't think too much! Hehe...I hope he doesn't have the time to read this... :P

Repositioning

It's been months since I last met or spoken to Joyce. So, we went out last night to catch up on the latest updates in our lives. Apart from our usual family/relationships topics, I was surprised that this girl has made a super fast act to enhance her career path in just a few months' time.

Previously, we have talked about this before and we had even planned almost everything, step by step. But, little did I notice that I have spent the last one year, slogging at work till I didn't have the time to even think or plan for my own path. Now that's what I call stupid! I am so happy and proud of her when she told me she has registered for a processional certification (This is part of my personal plan too...damn, am I too late?), enrolled herself for Masters and she has even obtained a license as a part time unit trusts agent. That's amazing, isn't it?

Well, honestly speaking, I am somewhat ashamed of myself. A year ago, I had a clear plan of my career path and I knew what I wanted. When I started this job and got stuck in the rat-race (in a way lah...), I got all so confused that I lost track of my own path. I didn't know what to do (other than work, work and work! Partly my fault because I was a workaholic?), where to go, where I was heading, etc. I just know, I had to continue working this way, and there will be no end. Most of us think that our boss or even the company would take a good care of our future. Come to think again, is it really true?

Oh be realistic, please! Even if you slog to death in this company, the most you can go is...erm, department manager? That's when your boss leaves or dies....and that's still long time to go (sorry, I am not cursing my boss actually! :P) So, how to progress if there's no plans or whatsoever? I don't know why but it suddenly struck me that it's been very stupid of me to have worked until falling sick, going in and out of the hospital and clinic without getting to grow in what I was supposed to learn, without getting whatever recognition or appreciation and also just for the sake of a bit of money. I don't think what I have gained would benefit my career path, even though I did learn other things that I have never thought of.

So, perhaps the fact that yours truly who is going jobless soon (I am not kidding!) would enable me to really think, think and think carefully and focus on what I have always wanted and reposition myself back to the right track again. In the mean time, I suppose a part time job or a short course of professional certifications would be beneficial...I hope so. Ohhh...I forgot to ask you, any job vacancies? :P

70 days of independence

It's been 15 hours since he left but I still can't quite figure out whether I can live the coming 70 days without him. Have I gotten too dependent on him? I wish I could deny that but I guess we have been too close to each other and since this is the first time he leaves after being together, it's really quite difficult to survive the coming days, let alone the first day itself.

All the while, I thought I could be independent (in fact, I have always been one!). But, this time is really exceptional. The first few hours or the first day of his absence have left me feeling so emotional (Yeah right...Blame it on the bloody PMS!), so blur that I really don't know what else to do. Honestly speaking, I have never expected the effect to be so huge... Could it be due to the long distance between us?

Until this moment of time, I am still trying to get myself acclimatized to his absence, to live without him, temporarily. Damn....now this line sounds so much like Le Ann Rimes' "How do I live without you?" >.< Oh yea...I have totally forgotten to upload my convo pics here. Sorry, but bro has not finished editing the pics but below are some of them. Hope I don't look too ugly in these pics. :P

Oops! I forgot to edit the size of the pics. Please don't focus and search for my pimples! :P Hehehe....only 3 pics for this round. Will upload more in my next post. :) Oh, just to revert back to the initial topic, I suddenly feel so useless ler.... It's only 15 hours ++ of separation, and I'm already missing him??? Just curious, will you feel the same way if you're in the same situation? Hmmm...

A day to remember

The night before the big day, I couldn't sleep at all. Was it because of the uncomfortable bed at the hotel? Or was I too excited? Haha...Whatever lah! I woke up at 4.30am to get ready. By 5.30am, I was still busy putting on make-up. We left hotel at about 6.10am, heading up north to Uni. I was still a bit sleepy but was also very excited at the same time.

The journey there was smooth. I reached Uni at about 7am and quickly ran to a nearby restroom to wear my robe and put on the mortar board. The square academic cap was a bit loose, so I had to use as many as 6 to 8 hair pins just to prevent it from falling off! Mum was with me when I went to the restroom to get ready. I guess she did steal some limelight when we walked pass a big crowd of visitors. Well, she obviously did because she wore a gorgeous kebaya, just for my convocation ceremony.

At about 7.15-7.30am, there were more and more graduands around the Dewan TSO. Bro took a few shots of me with his DSLR before I went into the hall with my friends. There was a short briefing before we all moved to the main hall, Dewan MAS. Hundreds of us were all dressed up in the full attire. We got even more excited when we took our seats in the main hall. There were choir singers, a team of musical instruments players, lecturers, professors, VIPs, parents, visitors, etc. in the main hall.

I had earlier been invited to attend a function to receive the Deputy VC's Gold Medal but I couldn't attend as it was held on a weekday. I was informed that I must wear the medal during convo, otherwise I won't be allowed to enter the hall without wearing the full attire. I was quite worried when the thought of not being able to enter the hall jammed my brain. After sitting at my place for about half an hour or so, the officer on duty came to search for me. I felt relieved when he finally passed me the Gold Medal and a certificate. "Congratulations! Please put this medal on." He told me.

At about 11am, it was my faculty's turn. We walked to the side of the stage, one by one in a line and waited for our names to be called. My hands were so cold at that moment. It felt like I was holding ice cubes! Erm, partly nervous and partly due to the air cond in the hall?? Hehe... When it was my turn, I had the same kind of feeling like what my friends told me. Every graduand will feel it when she goes up the stage to get her scroll of honour. "I must walk carefully!, I must not fall down on this special day!, I must remember to say whatever that I am supposed to say, I should not walk too fast, I must remember to smile, etc." There were many things in my mind. When I was really on the stage, there's only one thing in my mind. "This is 5-7 seconds of fame that I've been waiting for after struggling studying for 3 years!"

It was over within a few seconds but everyone was still smiling. At about 12.40pm, the event officially ended. There were hundreds and thousands of people gathering outside the main hall until I had the difficulty in locating my family and bf. When I finally saw them, it was really very sweet to get a large bouquet of flowers. And before I knew it, I had spent another few hours taking photos with my friends under the hot sun! After lunch, I continued taking pics at certain hot spots within uni, accompanied by bf while my family goes home earlier after a tiring day.

About 5pm, I went back to Dewan TSO and returned the robe to get my official certificates. Within a few minutes' time, we were already out of the university's compound, on the way heading home. I would say it was truly a memorable day but time passed very fast when I was still with my group of friends. I will surely miss all of them...

P/s: Bro is still editting the photos. So, I will only share the photos with you in my next post, hopefully asap. :) Damn, it's 12.30am already! I gotta sleep now. Ciao!

Decision is final

It's almost a month since I last blogged. That tells you one thing. I have been very busy!...but not for long.

After spending so much time to think, I've finally decided to start my journey on a new road. It's been too tiring, mentally and physically torturing to be where I am today. But, there's something else to worry from now onwards. When will I get phone calls to go for interviews? :P Hehe. "What? Are you leaving even before finding any new place?" I know you have that question in your mind. Well, honestly, I myself am surprised with this decision also...but I really feel so much lighter and happier after my boss accepts the letter (that's after 2-3 weeks of persuasion!).

I know I should start worrying about how to pay my bills (erm, not really that much lah...I think) but looking at things on a brighter side, the end of a road is the beginning of yet another road. Perhaps I should feel excited that I will be traveling down another different road that could possibly leave me happy and contented. Who knows?

Oh yeah, there are a few other things that are worth sharing because I am happy about them! I have received a wonderful present on V-day which left lots of people jealous! :P Hehehe... Another thing is, my convo is coming! It's next weekend and my name is even listed on my uni's website! Ohh....finally! I really can't wait for that day to come... :D

**Damn, this is my first time blogging in the office. Let's just hope that the IT dept is not tracking on what I'm doing...

Ribbons for V-day?

Today is the fourth day of CNY already??? Damn it! Why does it feel like the time has had a bullet train ride? Grrr....and the next moment, I bet you know what I'm about to rant. Tomorrow is the first day at work after CNY! :(

The other day, when I saw the bloody director punya muka tebal in the newspaper, really very potong stim....really got my mood spoiled! Of all things, I saw his face on the first day of CNY, and I did feel like a pile of suey-ness falling onto myself. That tells you why I was busy printing application letters and resume yesterday! Hahaha...

Oh anyway, speaking of CNY, there's another significant day in February. Erm, honestly speaking, I don't normally celebrate V-day but I've really got a problem here. I just can't think of anything to buy at all. I am seriously struggling while thinking of any physical things to buy. Damn, if he sees this, he'll be laughing his ass out! >.<

And when you're having such a big headache thinking of gifts to buy for him, you get funny ideas from friends. E.g. Tie a ribbon around your neck and make yourself his present. -.- I might consider this idea only if I've gone crazy. Erm, it's not really a bad idea actually but it just doesn't sound practical....hmmm.

I better go out and scout for something now....or maybe to get the ribbons. :P

Wedding bells?

I was busy with some work when a friend/colleague came over to my department. I was surprised to see him but it was even more shocking when he passed a red/pink colored envelope to me. I just smiled, said thank you and proceeded with whatever I was doing as I thought it was just a CNY card. But, when he continued standing there right beside my desk, I felt weird.

I turned, looked at him and decided to open the so-called CNY card. Ohh...it was a Wedding Invitation...and I saw the two surnames! As I screen through that card, gosh! Why is it so fast???? I quickly said congrats...and continued with my work, pretending as though it wasn't a big issue at all.

It was really weird, you know. Both of them got together somewhere around the time when me and the other half just got started. So, our relationships with each other's partner were actually about the same age....but out of the blue, they decided to get married??? I was like....what the hell? What's the rush? And before I knew it, there were rumours spreading around. Everyone was gossiping about the girl (I know her too), particularly about her stomach which is obviously getting bigger each day.

I'm guilty for talking about this topic among my group too but my concern is, will marriage like this one lasts? Well, it's obviously none of my problem as I am not the bride but nonetheless, I know the couple and the guy is my friend! Is he going to regret?

The story was something like this. They fell in love and half way through, there were arguments and they broke up. Unfortunately, she found out she was pregnant and they decided to get married. The problem is, they were together for just 3-4 months and now, they're going to be together for the rest of their lives? I know love is above all (for some people only!) but isn't it crazy? When you break up with someone, it obviously shows that both of you are not getting along well. So, why still proceed with the wedding just because of the baby? It sounds stupid. Put the responsibility issue aside first...

Sorry lah....I know it sounds cruel to the baby but think of this. Would you rather provide the child true happiness or just make sure the child has a father but cannot guarantee whether he/she is going to be happy? It's just 3-4 months only!!! How much do you know that person? Will you regret? Damn...I guess I have way too many friends who have gone through such situation before and I can tell you that....this guy will regret one day...and maybe the girl too.

Erm, when a couple has broken up but they still get married just because of the baby she carries, it just doesn't make any sense. Truly unacceptable, but nothing can be done anymore. Here's wishing the newly weds happiness and a smooth journey in building their family.