Sayonara...

Oii...why am I here?? It's fifteen minutes past 12 and I'm supposed to be sleeping!!! Hehe...

In about nine hours time, I'll be going on a two-hour journey back to Uni. And the funny thing is I'm smiling! Gosh...I'm crazy! Heh!

Anyway, I'm not sure when I'll blog again. So, I wish you all "Happy New Year"! May the new year brings you joy, luck, love, wealth and .......(fill in the blanks yourself! I know you're greedy when it comes to things like these =P)

See you next year! Take care! Hopefully, the rollercoaster ride for the year of 2006 won't be that bumpy as in this year...

Ciao. Muaks.

*hugs*

:)

I'm going back...

I'm slightly excited but at the same time, there's this hidden fear in me! :S

I don't know why there's a feeling of anticipation to go back to the jungle. Is there anything wrong with me??? Well, I certainly know there's actually nothing to make me feel this way. Nothing at all but why am I getting excited with the idea of going back to join the other monkeys, pigs, cobras and penguins in the big jungle??? Oh perhaps, it's because I found solace there in my previous sem when I called upon The Great One. Hmmm....if the excitement is all because of the closer communion with Him and not something else, there's a point of having the eagerness of going back! :)

Apart from the enthusiasm of going back, I'm also scared. I'm afraid of seeing myself "lost" again. The fear of what I went through is still lurking around in me. That's really scary! I don't want to fall again. I don't want to be out of control and let the emotional side of me taking over. Actually, I realised that this fear of repeated histories have been residing in the brain for a period of time. I don't even know how to describe the exact feeling that is attacking me right now. I just know that I'm scared. I'm afraid of getting "lost" again and it would certainly take a longer period to search back myself to get back on track. Let's just hope that I'll be stronger this time with the love and guidance from The Great One up there. Hopefully, He'll continue to keep an eye on me and prevent me from falling again. After all, it takes a long duration of time to get up again after each fall. It's definitely easier said than done. Nevertheless, I'm keeping my fingers crossed and with the faith I have in Him and also myself, I could see a bright light at the end of the tunnel for the journey this time!

After rotting for two months, I'm finally going back to Universiti Hutan Malaysia tomorrow and hopefully, I'll be able to blog as frequent as I like! Hehe...

Are you a true Penangite??

If the answer to the title or question above is yes, PLEASE be proud of our own dialect, Hokkien. Speak Hokkien! Kong Hokkien ua!

These days, everyone seems to be speaking Mandarin. *sheesh* Where ever I go, people speak Mandarin to me! Eh hello! Does any part of my face show signs that I could read, write or speak fluently in Mandarin?? I can't deny the beauty of the language BUT please lah, be proud of the Hokkien dialect. Oii, Penang lang toh bey kong Hokkien ua!!

What is wrong with the Chinese communities on this small island??? They've set a lousy mindset that one who speaks Mandarin has a higher status or class. This is so wrong. Just because of that kind of mindset, nobody speaks Hokkien anymore. Not even the sales girls or promoters at shopping malls. They can't understand Hokkien. They can't speak English too. Oh no! It feels like I'm actually in China!!!

It was really frustrating when the sales girl couldn't understand a customer. I was in Prangin Mall yesterday when a foreigner asked the part-time employee's assistance. She couldn't understand simple English at all. Since I was just a few centimetres away, I offered help. I translated what the tourist wanted to the girl in Hokkien as I thought everyone in Penang would comprehend that famous dialect. The young sales girl just grinned sheepishly. I asked her in a lousy intonated Mandarin, "You can't speak Hokkien, can you??" She replied in Mandarin and said no. I told her what the foreginer wanted in Mandarin and she complied to the tourist's orders. (Hmm...I wonder whether she understood what I said or not since that I'm a 85% banana! Erm...not this banana ok!) Isn't it embarrassing that even the Nepalese waiter at the famous coffeeshop at Swatow Lane could speak better Hokkien and English??? *shakes head*

Sad to say, but it's true. Currently, most Penangites are falling into that kind of category, just like that sales girl. They could speak fluently in Mandarin but they can't even understand simple English or Hokkien. Gosh! This category of peeps include professionals like engineers and executives! Don't believe me??? Well, leave your email addresses in the comment section and I'll send you a list of engineers from a well-known company. All those engineers from my contact list in MSN can't even understand simple English or Hokkien. Now, that's a solid reason as to why I prefer to be single until any exceptional ones appear! Hehehe....Oh out of topic! Now, I'm reminding you to speak Hokkien! Preserve the beauty of the dialect! Lai wa lang kong Hokkien ua! Hehe...

Oh no!!! What have I done???

Nehh....I got sick of the previous template. This is NOT the template I've been working on coz I still need some time to master some CSS skills.

So, stay tuned for the new template....erm, I don't know when it'll complete! HAha...

I am so bloody annoyed...

Eh hello! I'm still very young ok, now stop bombarding me all those weird questions, will you?? *sheesh* Why are all the older generations like that?? Okie, put those questions aside. Now, you tell me. What is your point if you start bragging about somebody I don't even know (I just know she exists)???

"Wahhh...the girl Mrs. Cakap Banyak took care of has started working. She just got back from the stupid land of Kangaroos and is earning RM 3700 a month!!!" (the girl is also twenty-one)

Bloody hell. You think I don't want to grad is it?? You think I don't want to earn that much??? If given a chance, I would very much prefer to start working tomorrow! You think it's so damn nice to stay in the jungle is it??? I just don't get it. The older generations are a bunch of weird people. They mentioned someone else's success. So, I thought, it would be a great idea to say something, like...erm my future.

BUT, I got bombarded! *rolls eyes* All I said was, "I can't wait to grad!" and they thought that was a stupid thing to think about. "You should enjoy your student's life and bla, bla, bla...no worries at all (yeah right!)...bla, bla, bla..."

I remember I mentioned something a few weeks back. "KL should be a great place to work for an alcoholic a workaholic like me. That place has got lots of job opportunities....that kind of jobs I've been eyeing for" But, I got this answer. "KL is not good. With the high cost of living (which is true), no friends over there (WRONG), no place to stay (this problem can be settled), got lots of bad guys too (oh really???) and yadda, yadda yadda...."

Oh okie. I KNOW. They are just over-protective. Of course they love me BUT isn't it over-exaggerating??? I'm growing older. It's almost time to leave the nest. In fact, I got the same kind of look from my folks when I told them I'm going to somewhere else to study and work. This is so not cool! Now, I really wonder how the hell am I going to tell them once I get an offer to work in the big city or worse...an offer for my postgraduate studies elsewhere some day. *sheesh*

I am telling you. It's not nice to be a girl, NOT because of the monthly flow. You know why? It's because I get funny answers like these:

"No matter how old you are, you will still be our LITTLE girl (Yea...that's very sweet but...)"

"...but I can't stay with you forever right? Yea...you both will still be my priority but as I get older, I have many other things to do. Many other responsibilities to undertake...like building my own career or better still, business empire, get married and have kids, etc."

"I know...that's why your father is worried that you will leave us. When you got an offer from uni, we were very much relieved coz you will still be near to us."

".....So, if I really got an offer to further my studies in another country, he won't let me go??? Do you mean to say that you prefer me to stay in Penang FOREVER??"

"I don't think he'll stop you but it's better to be in Penang. You could still pursue your masters here."

"*disappointed* In that case, please be warned...IF I really stay and work in Penang next time, it's rather impossible for you to have a son-in-law or grandchildren" *secretly planning to work and stay elsewhere*

"Why? Don't be so choosy lah. You got many male friends right? Ahh, that one who drives car X is ok what. That guy I saw the other day is also not bad. Oh, what about that old friend of yours who drives car Y? The guy who drives car Z got girlfriend already??"

"....................."


See?? I know my folks are caring and loving. BUT, mum is irritating over-exaggerating! Damn...why does the older generations love to compare?? Now, she's bragging about someone getting a highly paid job in KL. What's next??
"Oh, Mrs. Mulut Besar's daughter got engaged and she's getting married soon. When is your turn??" OR
"Mrs. KaypoChee's daughter gave birth to a healthy baby boy. Sigh. Don't know whether I'll have the luck to play with my granchildren."
Well, mum didn't say those things yet, but she MIGHT say it one of these days!

I could foresee that mum is soon going to be like the other nosy Aunties out there! Scary but I don't get it. Why is it that mum doesn't say anything like that to bro??? This is so unfair. Why is it that girls get bombarded with annoying questions all the time???? I wonder how will my folks react IF I tell them I'm into girls....(Eeuuuwww....NO way! I'm straight. GUYS only! No joke.)

*sheesh* I am so bloody annoyed coz mum keeps repeating the same questions over and over again. Shit. Why am I so irritated?? Ahhh....it's that time of the month! No wonder I can't tolerate anymore. *rolls eyes*

The Twelve Days of Christmas

There are twelve days of Christmas before Epiphany on January 6th.

Read here.


~Merry Christmas~

Merry Christmas!!!

O Holy Night

O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining.
Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angel voices!
O night divine, the night when Christ was born;
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!

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A Christmas Prayer by Robert Louis Stevenson

Loving Father,

Help us remember the birth of Jesus,
that we may share in the song of the angels,
the gladness of the shepherds,
and worship of the wise men.

Close the door of hate and open the door of love all over the world.
Let kindness come with every gift and good desires with every greeting.
Deliver us from evil by the blessing which Christ brings, and teach us to be merry with clear hearts.

May the Christmas morning make us happy to be thy children, and Christmas evening bring us to our beds with grateful thoughts, forgiving and forgiven, for Jesus' sake. Amen.


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Dear Lord Jesus, Happy Birthday! Thank you for coming into my life. You calm me each time when I'm down. You hug and comfort me when I feel like crying. You always listen when I talk. You shower me with unconditional love when I need someone. You guide and search for me each time when I get lost in my journey of life. You were and will always be there when I need You. You accept and love me for who I am. Therefore, You will always have a place in my heart because I love You too! Merry Christmas! :)

Merry Christmas to everyone out there! *Cheers*