Through trials and errors....

I was out with Joyce when I recalled about an article I read some time ago. We were talking about the latest updates in our lives when we touched on certain issues regarding the silly things we once did.

The article was long but I shall summarize the whole thing into a simplified question. It asked...

"If you had to choose, which do you prefer? Someone who is years older, who already has an established and successful career, lots of money and obviously has lots of experience in life in many different aspects OR someone who is around your age range, who is ever ready to grow and improve himself/herself together with you no matter what happens, the both of you go through trials and tribulations together..."

I told Joyce about this article and we just laughed. Thinking back, I guess both of us have sort of gone through a lot of shitty experiences to be where we are today. Many years ago, we both confidently declared that one should be realistic enough and the right answer should be the former. However, as we were enjoying our dinner, we were truly surprised that our answer to the question in the article has changed.

Wherever you are, whatever you do, shit happens! And through shitty, dirty and ugly experiences, we have grown to accept everything in the past. And we're glad that we managed to learn, to change, and to slowly pick up the small and tiny pieces of broken trusts and confidence. Previously, we did choose the former answer but now, we both prefer the latter answer. Maybe I should say, we have outgrown the so-called over-realistic mindset and we actually preferred some space for ourselves to breathe too? (Tip: You might understand this line if you had dated guys from that former category!) Haha...

A night to remember

In the blink of an eye, I'm a year older again. Last year's birthday was kind of a nightmare for me but this year, I am truly happy and also surprised that you celebrated with me last night. All the while, I would be contented with just a simple birthday wish from people I know. But, it was really very sweet of you to organize a special meaningful celebration for me.

Thinking back, it was really funny for the both of us to apply half day's leave to spend time together. And the even funnier part was the guys thought we're an item! Hehe. Well, I wouldn't want to talk so much on that yet. *Blushes* You know, this date we had last night has sort of left me embarrassed and shy when I had a short conversation with Mum the day before.

Mum: We cut cake tomorrow (18th) ok? You make sure you come back early from office.
Me: Erm, I can't. I have a dinner date tomorrow.
Mum: Dinner? With your whole gang of friends?
Me: Erm, no...
Mum: One on one dinner?
Me: Hehe....yes.
Mum: Wahhh....we have to cut the cake on the eve because you're dating your bf on the real day?? *Giggles*
Me: .............Mum, he's not my bf.
Mum: Well, he's a guy right? So he's your bf!
Me: ......... *speechless*

Hehehe...

Oops. I guess I've just gone a bit out of topic. Anyway, I hope you had a great time too last night. Thanks for accompanying me, the jokes, the romantic dinner, the cake, the surprising present (I love it! :P), the long chats, the shared dreams and plans, and everything else. I truly appreciate the extra effort you put in just to make this day a special one. Thank you! :)

Things you shouldn't do during a blind date

It was a blind date set up by a friend of mine. Well, she thought I've been date-less f0r ages and she was obviously too free, so she made me meet up with a guy I've never met before. We only chatted a few times previously.

Initially, I was reluctant to go but when some idiots made me pissed off at work, I was so eager to leave office early to go somewhere. So I agreed to meet him up when he called....erm, in a way entertaining my friend's "good deeds".

We met over dinner for a while only...one or one and a half hours. Haha. The first impression was...."Why does he look so much older than his actual age?" Oh well, I told myself, "Never mind. It's just a dinner with a guy. Nothing big deal. It won't kill." But, when his funny and annoying character surfaced, I was so tempted to call ANY of my male friends to come over and 'rescue' me.

Anyway, forget about that. We shall focus on what this post is all about. When you're on a blind date, you shouldn't do certain things.

1) Do not mention about your old flames. Nobody is interested with stories about your ex.
2) Do not brag about things you did. Nobody would praise you for that 7.2 Million worth of sales you raked in.
3) Do not ask about the girl or guy's background too much. Things like "What's your parent's occupation?" You're interested in that person and is dating him/her, not the parents. So don't ask stupid questions.
4) Do not laugh like a gay. It's a great turn off.
5) Do not show your anticipation in getting the relationship started. That only shows one thing. You're sooooo desperate and unfortunately, you won't see that guy/girl anymore after this.
6) Do not tell "jokes" that are only funny to yourself.
7) Do not be the forceful type. When he or she says no, accept it.
8) Do not wear the type of outfit that makes you look YEARS older.
9) Do not talk when there's food in your mouth.
10) Do not order a big amount of food, as though you've never eaten before.

So there you go. That guy was really like that. Such a great turn off. Even though I only had the intention of adding another friend into my existing circle and was only pleasing my friend, I really can't tolerate that guy's character. I guess I won't be seeing him anymore after this. Bleh!

Fly me to the moon

I recently realized something weird in me. I seem to like aeroplanes, very much. As my workplace is quite near to the airport, I see huge airplanes each day. The sight of an aeroplane taking off seems to develop some kinda feeling in me. It feels as though it brings hopes....but I still didn't understand why I felt that way, until about three hours ago.

I was at the airport a few hours ago together with a few colleagues to send a friend/colleague off. Separation has always been a sad moment, especially when you're surrounded by your teary-eyed loved ones. However, there was something behind the reluctance of leaving this beautiful island. It was that familiar word again. Hope.

I don't know why but that word really jammed my brain, for a moment. Just imagine this, you're there about to leave this place to fulfill your dreams...to reach your stars...to do what you ought to do for a brighter future, and you will definitely miss everything here. But, when you turn and look at your folks, your friends and relatives who come all the way to support you....you can only feel one thing. There's hope...and that is what your loved ones see in you.

Damn. I guess I lost what I wanted to say. Too tired I guess. Anyways, just want to wish that friend of mine the best in his future endeavors. 2 years sound so long...hmm...his gf must be crying badly now. *Sigh* Separation moments hurt the most.

Lost within the shadows

As I stared at myself in the mirror, my image spoke to me...

~~~

You could be flying here and there, everywhere
...but which direction are you heading to?

The wind blows
...but where is it bringing you to?

As you blindly follow the flow
...but can't you feel that you're similar to a headless chicken?

The game has already started,
...but what are you still waiting for?

If it's not now,
...then when will the right time come?

You feel bad,
...and thought it was everyone's fault.

The truth is, who else can you blame
...but none other than the one you look in the mirror?

Time flies,
...and you have actually forsaken what you once promised.

To be back on track,
...the Light will definitely shine to guide you through, yet again...

As He never breaks His promises, never.

~~~

What is life without dreams?

I was clearing my messages on Friendster when I noticed a friend's personal message. Another friend of mine has finally found his "home" or the final destination, which is some sort of a dream come true for him. Many-many years ago when we first acquainted, he told me before that he wanted to build his home in some nice places in other country. I was merely a teenager and I thought he was only joking. But now, he has really gone to where his dreams belong and built his home at Guernsey (Channel Islands) with a beautiful wife and young daughter. At the age of 28, he has moved from Ipoh to such a beautiful place, it is indeed a dream come true...

Other than this friend, there's another one who will be leaving soon (erm, he might have left this place!). This is yet another dream come true as he will be working in UK, something he has planned for ages. When he told me about the job offer, I was sad that another friend is leaving, but at the same time, I was happy coz my friend lives up to his dreams.

How many of you actually fight and give all you can or have, just to achieve your dreams? I might be the very ambitious type and would do anything I can just to reach my dreams but the problem is, have I done anything? I'm truly ashamed of myself! What have I done thus far? Will I be able to do what I've always dreamed of when I'm 28?

Some people may have a much simpler mindset, where they would be satisfied with everything they currently have or minor things they plan to have and take things easily...but what is life without dreams? What is the meaning of life without trying to upgrade ourselves? It isn't about materialism. It is about what you want to achieve and how you can achieve it. Well, I do agree that simplicity is good (at times!) but why should we follow the crowd? Can't we set our own dreams and be different from our peers?