What has that got to do with me???

So, you got yourself an Ah Lian a girlfriend but what's so big deal about that?? I appreciate your effort of messaging me on MSN just to crap on other inane stuff WHEN I WAS EXTREMELY BUSY preparing for my exams, bit around the bush then suddenly told me something I needn't know.

Really. To tell you the truth, I don't need to know what you told me. "Tell you something lah, I'm single but not available anymore!" What kind of crap is that? Seriously, I've never heard any real man saying such a lousy crap before. Alright, I'm happy for you that you've finally found a girl who accepts you for who you are, but hello??? I'm not blind ok! Your personal message of "I love so-and-so" on MSN tells it all and you really need not put in so much effort just to tell me something I don't need to know.

For the past two months, you've been showing off the pics of you and that girl while chatting with me and I thought that's just plain stupid. I mean, what's the main purpose of doing so? To make me jealous?? To gloat about your "success" or "popularity" amongst girls? Duhh...excuse me! If I were to tell the whole world about me and the other men I once loved, then there'll be no end to it. I've never really seen any guy doing things like that. Heh! After so many years, you're still the same....*sigh*

What you told me got me thinking and I finally realized why we never end up together last time. It was really a right choice even though you're quite a nice guy, really. Heh! Thank God, I made that decision. Or else, I would regret having a boyfriend who constantly reminded me about marriage (He said he wanted to marry me when I was merely 18! *gasp* Oh crap!), someone who indirectly blocked all my ambitious dreams and to my worst nightmare, a man who was possessive, controlling and full of jealousy.

So, since you told me about your so-called BIG news, I thought maybe it would be ideal to tell you that I'm on the same boat...but your reply made me suffocate for a moment. You thought I was still dreaming of.....of patching up and going back to you? Dream on... It was really the BIGGEST ever mistake I made to mail you after I lost that bloke. I thought it was better to seek refuge in a man who loves and appreciates me more than I do but guess it all happened when I was too emo. Yea, I know that was very self-centred but thankfully, I woke up just in time to stop all the advances and asked you to forget everything I said. So, are you thinking that you're still much sought after and that I'm still very much into you?? Oh, sorry...but that's just the past. Stop dreaming ok!

It was really annoying when you thought that I was still thinking about you. Oh come on, grow up, will you? Whatever that's over is over. Do you need to repeat everything again? And by the way, I need not report anything in my life to you too. Whatever it is, congrats for having a girlfriend finally and hope everything goes on smoothly for you and her. Please be reminded not to tell me anything between you and her coz I really don't need to know that...thank you!

Oh there's another thing I forgot to mention. It was very irritating when you kept asking "Who's that guy?". What's the point of telling when you don't even know him? Will you feel better if I were to tell you that he's a Degree holder and you're not? ...or tell you that I'm much happier to be with him? Bah... Just stop comparing or asking silly questions ok! You're only downgrading your own self.

And oh by the way, I might as well type it here so that everyone who reads my blog knows that I hate this....If you wish to tell me anything about your personal life, go ahead if you think it's not lame or stupid BUT never ask me about my personal life unless I willingly tell you! Just mind your own business ok! You really needn't brag and tell the whole world about things like, "I got a gf or bf already!", "I got deflowered or deflowered her or him already!", etc. coz that makes you very immature. I hate immature retards! Just grow up, will you?

Can you please shut the fcuk up???

No...I didn't say that though I was really tempted to. I was so annoyed with the bloody lecturer until I nearly utter that right in his face...but I just walked out of the class, while he's still teaching. Think that's already way too much!

He's a real idiot! This Saturday marks the first day of my final exams and his paper is the first one. So, in actual fact, this week is supposed to be the study week for all students but some kiasu lecturers prefer to mumble in class and teach stupid things just a few days before exams!

Today's supposed to be the presentation day for our assignment. Everyone was all prepared for the damn thing (erm...except me coz I'm not the one who's going to present), but the moment he entered the class, he continued teaching. Ok, there's nothing wrong with him being hardworking and so eagerly wanting to teach us but hello??? That idiot said this topic isn't coming out in exam and why did he teach?? So, a student asked, and all he said was, "Semua masuk", meaning every damn thing is coming out in exam.

Never mind. What made everyone in class frustrated was the way the idiot taught in class today. He taught the whole chapter, with 138 slides to be exact in just one and a half hours' time. And he was yakking like a bullet train. If he was teaching something as simple as management, I would be fine and no one would panic. He was teaching on waste water treatment, the last chapter in environmental engineering, with the hope that we could appreciate Indah Water's effort, so to speak.

When a girl in class asked whether a certain part is coming out in the exam, he said, "bacalah". The girl explained that we only have another 100 hours to study for the bloody exam but he ignored her. How on earth are we going to finish studying a total of 5000 over slides for the exam on this Saturday??? Heh?? The topics are super damn boring! Solid waste management, Hazardous waste, Waste water treatment, Air pollution index, Environmental Act (Section 1, 2, 3,....) , etc.

Oh what an idiot! When a student asked him questions, he'll definitely say the same few things. "Bacalah!", "Takkan tak tahu?? Ala...senang saja", "Oh lebih baik tak payah tanya, baik balik dan kahwin sajalah kalau tak tahu bahagian ini", "Tak tahu jawab?? Baik simpan nota di rumah untuk nenek baca!", etc.

I thought today's his last class for the semester and I won't be seeing his bloody face ever again, but I will still need to attend his fcuking class on Wednesday. Damn. I don't know whether I'll explode or not when I see his horse face again this Wednesday. Arrghh...

All the time, he thinks he's damn smart just because he has those two bloody papers called Degree from Japan and Masters from Thailand. Heh! big deal! Previously, I was offered a place by a university in Japan too. So how's that?

During class (just now), I was really tempted to:
1) Throw the thick Environmental Act book at his bloody horse face and feed him with my black sandals.
2) Walk up to him and say "Can you please shut the fcuk up???" right in his face
3) Tell him, "If you were that smart, you wouldn't be stuck here in the jungle without any job satisfaction, no future job prospects, whatsoever."
4) Drag him to the loo and flush his head down the toilet bowl with organic waste!
5) Tell him, "If you were suffering from a male PMS, then you better get the hell out of here!"
6) *Yawn* Tell him, "Your English sucks! I don't understand what you're talking about. Even my eleven-year-old cousin could speak better than you. So, go away!"
7) Tell him, "If your mother forced you to teach here, you might as well go back home and suck your thumb!"

Think I better bring a few extra Evening Primrose Oil capsules for him just in case he's still suffering from male PMS! Shit! Don't think it's a good idea to spend too much time to rant about him. Think I better go back and study for his bloody paper this Saturday. Will definitely throw a result he never expected at his bloody face! That's for sure!

Virus!!!!

Damn! I've been so bloody occupied with two big projects and now, of all thing, my beloved notebook got infected with FOURTEEN VIRUSES!

Thanks to bloody idiots who have nothing else better to do! Arrghh...

The bloody virus

Description:

This worm spreads by attaching a copy of itself to email messages, which it sends to its target recipients. These messages are either written in English or Indonesian.

The email it sends has the following details:

Subject: (blank)

Message Body: (any of the following)

-- Hentikan kebobrokan di negeri ini --
1. Penjarakan Koruptor, Penyelundup, Tukang Suap, & Bandar NARKOBA
2. Stop Free Sex, Aborsi, & Prostitusi?brA( Go To HELL )
3. Stop pencemaran lingkungan, pembakaran hutan & perburuan liar.
4. SAY NO TO DRUGS !!!

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-- KIAMAT SUDAH DEKAT --
Terinspirasi oleh:
Elang Brontok (Spizaetus Cirrhatus) yang hampir punah

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-- JowoBot #VM Community --
!!! Akan Kubuat Mereka (VM lokal yg cengeng & bodoh)
Terkapar !!!

Attachments: (any of the following)

• CCAPPS.EXE
• KANGEN.EXE
• MY HEART.EXE
• MYHEART.EXE
• SYSLOVE.EXE
• UNTUKMU.EXE
• WINWORD.EXE

Stupid Indon monkeys!

Can I sleep a little longer, please???

The title says it all. I have not been getting enough sleep, let alone time to eat and shit. So, there won’t be any frequent updates for the time being. The most I could do is to blog a few words or a few sentences, which is what I’m going to do now.

I am tired. Sleepy. Have fcuking volcanoes on the face. No time to eat. No time to shit. Hate idiotic fame demanding morons who are only good for nothing. Annoyed by a nosy bitch. My brain capacity is overloaded.

I want to sleep for as long as I could. Crave to eat Penang hawker food and Thirty Two’s Tiramisu. I want to talk on the phone till my hand phone explodes (Oh no!! Not till it explodes! Heh! =P), relax at the beach area (Wei, drag me to SeaWind please!!! =P), daydream…

Arrghh….back to work. Still have two projects, one quiz and two presentations to go before my final exams start. Bloody hell. Exams officially start on 8^th April but I still haven’t studied a single word from my notes! *gasp*

Oh please help. I need time desperately to eat, achieve orgasms sleep and shit. Simple human needs. Mind to donate some time??

*Reluctantly goes back to the Microsoft Words document to type reports for the projects*

She still remembers me!!

The other day, a familiar face entered the lecture hall. She came in to replace the original lousy useless lecturer who was busy with the ISO documentation. When she entered the hall, she smiled. She took a glance at the whole class of students and she saw me.

Lecturer#1: You're Tiramisu@~Piggie~, right? (She mentioned my real name, of course!)

Me: Errr…yea! *smiles*

Lecturer#1: You’re not sleepy, aren’t you?

Me: Errm…not at the moment. *smiles sheepishly*

I don’t know why she asked that. So, later after the class ended, I went to see her, on the pretext of asking her a question.

Me: Puan…(I asked something related to the subject she taught in class…)

Lecturer#1: (Explained)….

Me: Puan, you have a good memory, huh? You taught me that subject about a year ago but you still remember me!

Lecturer#1: Of course! I’ll never forget you.

Me: Errr…How come?

Lecturer#1: Coz you were the only Chinese girl wearing the beautiful blue baju kurung on that day when I caught you sleepy in class.

Me: Errrm…*blushes*

Me: Oh yea…I remembered. You said, “Pelajar berbaju biru, mengantuk ya???”

Lecturer#1: *laughs*

Damn! This is the second lecturer who could still remember me because I was caught either sleeping or sleepy in class!! The other lecturer was "The Drunkard", the one with the “karipap” hairstyle! He asked me the same question again the other day when I met him.

Question: “Masih mengantuk dalam kelas??”

*sheesh* Because of that, all those lecturers remember me! Bleh!

Conflict of time

I’ve been very busy of late. I have 2 big projects and many assignments (both group and individual) to complete before my final exams start. I have another three tests next week. All the time, I really hate this time of each semester…the time when 24 hours isn’t enough at all. Wish I had 36 hours a day…erm, on second thought, I don’t think 36 hours would be adequate! LOL!

I really can’t wait for everything to finish. I can’t wait for my final exams to start! Not that I love exams that much, it’s just that during that time, I’d be able to get enough sleep (Hehe…I really sleep a lot especially during the exam month!), get to do anything I want or just laze around apart from doing revision. No need to wake up early for classes. No bloody irrelevant ASSignments to do! …BUT, I’m currently going through a stage, which I’ve identified as the ‘conflict of time’.

I can’t wait for my ASSignments to finish. I can’t wait for my final exams to start and have been looking forward to my semester break….BUT at the same time, I’m secretly hoping for the time to pass by slowly. Even thought of stopping the time for a short period but I know it’s impossible.

With the little time left, I could really sense the intense outcome that’s slowly affecting me. As each day draws nearer, I could feel the existing distance between us getting bigger and bigger. Time is moving too fast. You entered my radar out of nowhere and now you’re going somewhere else. You’re leaving soon. It would be an impact to both parties even though you confidently convinced me that we’d still keep in touch. Will everything change once you got there??

Everything just happened naturally at the wrong timing. It was an unexpected detection (from my perspective) and now, we have no other choices. We’re both stuck to our own obligations and one would be too self-centered if he or she were to request something that goes against the responsibility. That’s why I supported your sudden decision when you told me you’re going there. I keep telling that Someone up there to keep an eye on you to ensure that everything goes on smoothly. Even though it was really a difficult reality to accept, one can never be too egocentric when it comes to a decision like this. Nonetheless, I’m happy for you. You’ve found your way there, a place where you would have a brighter future…A place where you would search for your own true identity.

Guess it’s all planned. It’s fated. I’ll just have to drag myself along the road called reality but I believe that there’s always a reason behind everything we do or anything that happens to us. So, no matter what, think it’ll be all right to tag along with whatever that has been ‘pre-planned’ for me. Maybe it’s a way The Great One tests my strength, patience and loyalty? Hmm…Hopefully, I’m doing the right thing and am on the right path.

Now, with the limited time left, I really don’t know what else I could do besides waiting for each minute to pass by slowly. This is really a conflict of time. I want to end this semester as soon as possible BUT I wish to delay your departure date too. Damn! You conquered too much of my brain’s capacity already! Are you happy now?? *sheesh*rolls eyes*

Time to say goodbye (English version), by Sarah Brightman & Andrea Bocelli

(Sarah)
When I'm alone I dream of the horizon and words fail me.
There is no light in a room where there is no sun
and there is no sun if you're not here with me, with me.
From every window unfurls my heart the heart that you have won.
Into me you've poured the light,
the light that you found by the side of the road.

Time to say goodbye.
Places that I've never seen or experienced with you.
Now I shall, I'll sail with you upon ships across the seas,
seas that exist no more,
it's time to say goodbye.

(Andrea)
When you're far away I dream of the horizon and words fail me.
And of course I know that you're with me, with me.
You, my moon, you are with me.
My sun, you're here with me, with me, with me, with me.

Time to say goodbye.
Places that I've never seen or experienced with you.
Now I shall, I'll sail with you upon ships across the seas,
seas that exist no more.

(Both)
I'll revive them with you.
I'll go with you upon ships across the seas,
seas that exist no more,
I'll revive them with you.
I'll go with you.
You and me.

Leave it to the Expert

I tried stopping myself from too much of brain exercises. I did many things to distract myself. I did notes for my coming exams. I did the uncountable neverending assignments and projects. I slept. I read. I did many things…but nothing helps once the brain is active! LOL!

So, I gave up. It’s not that I’m a coward who would run away from reality each time a problem occurs. Oh no! Never. I’m just leaving everything to that Someone up there. He’ll be the one to guide, decide and judge. After all, that’s what He promises…well, that’s according to the Bible.

"Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you." 1 Peter 5:7

"The Lord is good, a strong refuge when trouble comes. He is close to those who trust in Him." Nahum 1:7

"For you are my hiding place; you protect me from trouble. You surround me with songs of victory." Psalm 32:7

Heh! Think I've really gone crazy, erm...for a while! A tad exaggerating...bleh! Guess it was a hostile takeover by the devil with the name Worries. Hehe...

=)