The first thing you feel or think when you reach home should be... "AhHh....home sweet home, I am finally back!"
...but when you really reach home, and all you hear is blah, blah and blah....where somebody is nagging non-stop, and specifically spewing questions similar to that of a trash, you will think of the opposite. "I shouldn't have come back so early!"
I mean, what's the point of going home early when all one has to face is pointless arguments? And, it all comes back to the same conclusion. You can do anything you want all the time, but from your point of view, I can't. (I sometimes feel like a prisoner, seriously!) You can work till forever and come home late, but I must listen to everything you say, even bullshits and I must be back early no matter how. Your work is work, your career is your life, your everything, the main priority in your life, but you always think that my work is made of a pile of shit and I should have dumped everything behind! The worse is, your hard earned money is real money, possibly made of gold! ...but mine is made of rocks! ...it has no value to you at all even though I do pay for my own bills!
You know, it's been really tiring! Until today, I still don't understand a lot of things. I've tried to let all these stupid thoughts go but each time you start to make hurtful comments or whatsoever, it hurts so much that I've become numb to it. When you neglect your actual priorities just for the sake of your so-called important job, outside activities and bitchy friends, I have never complained of anything. And now you're making a big fuss just because I have my own life, lots of work and I am much happier outside? Hahahaa....you're such a self-centered person!
There's another thing that bothers me all this while. You would rather glue your eyes to the idiot box or the bloody newspaper, than to look at me and listen to the things I say....but I keep you informed about my things too anyway. But, you were never interested and have never taken any initiative to keep any records of the things I told you. Oh I forgot! You're always and forever interested in the other person's things only!
...but when you really reach home, and all you hear is blah, blah and blah....where somebody is nagging non-stop, and specifically spewing questions similar to that of a trash, you will think of the opposite. "I shouldn't have come back so early!"
I mean, what's the point of going home early when all one has to face is pointless arguments? And, it all comes back to the same conclusion. You can do anything you want all the time, but from your point of view, I can't. (I sometimes feel like a prisoner, seriously!) You can work till forever and come home late, but I must listen to everything you say, even bullshits and I must be back early no matter how. Your work is work, your career is your life, your everything, the main priority in your life, but you always think that my work is made of a pile of shit and I should have dumped everything behind! The worse is, your hard earned money is real money, possibly made of gold! ...but mine is made of rocks! ...it has no value to you at all even though I do pay for my own bills!
You know, it's been really tiring! Until today, I still don't understand a lot of things. I've tried to let all these stupid thoughts go but each time you start to make hurtful comments or whatsoever, it hurts so much that I've become numb to it. When you neglect your actual priorities just for the sake of your so-called important job, outside activities and bitchy friends, I have never complained of anything. And now you're making a big fuss just because I have my own life, lots of work and I am much happier outside? Hahahaa....you're such a self-centered person!
There's another thing that bothers me all this while. You would rather glue your eyes to the idiot box or the bloody newspaper, than to look at me and listen to the things I say....but I keep you informed about my things too anyway. But, you were never interested and have never taken any initiative to keep any records of the things I told you. Oh I forgot! You're always and forever interested in the other person's things only!
You know, I really can't help thinking this way and this thought has been around for a long time .... If I'm much happier outside, shouldn't I be independent enough to feed myself outside, somewhere out there, anywhere??
