Friday, April 27, 2007

Strawberry flavoured toothpaste?

When I was a kid, I used to fancy the super-cute Kodomo Lion toothbrush and toothpaste. (I bet almost every kid my age was like that back then!)

Today, specifically this afternoon at about 1 something, I can't believe I actually did something funny at Tesco. I bought a Kodomo Lion toothbrush with a free strawberry flavoured toothpaste at RM2.70 only (Very cheap eh?) and damn, I used it out of desperation!

Can you imagine it? How would you react if you were to see a twenty-something years old woman using Kodomo Lion oral care products in the toilet? Gahh.... the other women in the restroom thought I was a retard! Hee...

I was late for my dental checkup after going to Company A to sign and get the offer letter. So I had to resort to using kid's oral care products after lunch. (It's much cheaper than my special ortho care toothbrush ok!) If I hadn't brushed my teeth before meeting my orthodontist, she's going to kill me! Haa...

Now, it seems funny to me. Why did I like the Kodomo Lion toothpaste so much when I was a kid? Damn. I still can't get rid of the yucky strawberry flavour even after brushing my teeth for five times! Aiihhh...


Thursday, April 26, 2007

Booze...

I was enjoying some Swiss and Belgian Dark and White chocs when I found something. It's Absolut Raspberri!

Gosh! I didn't know I have that at home! Wahhaha...

Isn't it a perfect combination? A blend of my fav chocs and fav drink together....

Mmmmm....

Damn. I'm so addicted. I'm goin to get my fourth glass now...Ciao.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

...being stepped...but still not dead yet...

All these years, I've gotten lots of feedbacks from family members, friends and acquaintances. They said yours truly is a very secretive person. Well, I can't deny that fact and all I could say in reply to wat they said was, I emphasize a lot on privacy. So, nobody actually knows what I really want, or what I'm really thinking about...

Thus, I conclude that I'm really quite secretive. I heard you asking why. Well, it's simple actually.

When you're excited about something and told someone about it, he or she gave this response. "Are you kidding? You cannot do it lah"

When you have some problems and would really feel better if you could confide in someone, that person thinks you're stupid for having thought of such things. He or she will just say, "Aiya. Why think about all that?", and walks away like you just spoke to a wall.

When you want to share your big dreams or plans with anyone close to you, you get these responses. "Don't waste your time lah", "You are only building castles in the air", "Live within your means", "That friend of mine can't even get it. Don't tell me you can do it", etc. (Damn it! I hate naysayers!)

You know, I'm getting real bored with all those bullshits. I get blamed for being too secretive, too sensitive, not friendly, weird, etc. just because I don't want to open up and tell you things. And when I do tell you my things, it feels like I'm either talking to a wall, or worse, you slap me with all the negative things without any support. Are you telling me that I have to consider every single pig's feelings when nobody even cares how I feel? Aww...you gotta be out of your mind! Oh yeah, being the real me, I've always cared for other people's feelings, and what do I get in return? Haa...guess you people have never asked yourselves that when you say certain things!

Be it friends or family, oh please...you know I'm damn fcuking stubborn. So each time you say "no" or "you won't get it" , I will make it a "yes" and I will get it. Whatever it is, just shut up! If you support me, thank you....if not, just go shit somewhere else! I've had enough of bullshits around.

Friday, April 20, 2007

Never trust a cucumber

Yesterday, I had dinner and spent some time with my closest friend at Uni, Mickey. We chatted on a variety of topics but when she told me the latest news about a girl at a hostel near her place, I almost fainted. The story was about an unreliable cucumber that causes so much of embarassment to a "pure and innocent" girl.

It was a normal, quiet day when the ambulance from our Uni's mini-hospital came. The ambulance siren was loud enough to gather a big crowd of busybodies - girls!

"What happened? Why is the ambulance here?" Everyone was heard asking each other.

"Something happened between a girl and.....a cucumber" someone explained.

"The green thing is no longer a reliable device. It broke into two when it was expected to be...erm, reliable" said another girl. (And the rumour started to spread)

***

To cut a long story short, it was obviously a weird scenario. Our uni's mini-hospital refused to tend to this emergency case and the girl was later sent to a nearby hospital...to get another half of the green thing out of her. *Ouch*

Hehe. All the while, I thought cucumber was only a joke and nobody would be so stupid to use it for that purpose...but now, it's clear that stupid people really exists! Why a cucumber?? Yerrr....


Thursday, April 19, 2007

Time to leave...

17th April 2007

Exactly one month from this date, I'll be leaving this place. After staying here in the jungle for three years, I'm finally going back to civilization. This is faster than I've ever expected...but I'm not really that excited either.


Friday, April 13, 2007

Women's instinct

Every woman has some kind of super power in them. The instinct tells them the right thing most of the time, if not all the time.

So when instinct tells me that some people are idiots, they really appear to be idiots.

When I sense that some people are fcukers, they really turn out to be fcukers.

When it feels like shit will happen, shit really happens.

So my instinct really told me the right thing! You seriously need not put in so much of effort to be so fake! Anyway, thanks for wearing the bloody pseudo mask. Whatever it is, just fcuk off and mind your own business!!


Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Self-confessed worrywart

I’m an idiot when it comes to worries! Well, that’s just another bloody side of me! I probably worry/think too much for my age!

The day is getting nearer and nearer. I should be relaxed and looking forward to the first day at work since I’ve already gotten an internship placement (Erk, the company actually wants me to work as its permanent employee…) but here I am, worried that this company could possibly be the wrong one.

It’s not that company A is not good enough. After all, it has manufacturing plants worldwide and it is possibly too high-tech also!…but I thought maybe I should QUICKLY (kinda desperate eh?) search for other companies, perhaps Company B (which is equally reputable but I’m not talking about the reputation issue now) that I’ve been eyeing upon to complete the four-month stint. If I were to go ahead with the initial plan, which is Company A, will I be able to align myself back to my actual plan? I can’t stop pondering…well, that’s a big question actually.

That company wants me to work full time…and my new boss told me the other day that she wants a long-term commitment, that’s only if I appear to be a good “investment” during my four months probation there. I was thinking…since I have this plan of getting my ass out of this place after the four months, shouldn’t I be doing my industrial training at a company that only wants me for four months??? It saves a lot of time and hassle for both parties. Sounds better, isn’t it?

Anyway, as I’m typing this, I’ve already sent in my cover letter and resume directly to the HR of Company B, specifically its Penang branch. Well, maybe…just maybe Company B would be interested as I’ve spoken to the HR of this company (HQ) and she was willing to accept me there, albeit in PJ. Hmm…now I just hope the HR of its Penang branch wants me… Yeah, you saw that word too – HOPE.

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Oh I just got a call from my new boss and another thing came to mind almost instantaneously. Do you actually believe that things are fated? Like my case now, what if it is destined that Company A will be my first employer? Aww…that question sounds stupid now coz I know I don’t belong to the type that would blindly leave everything to fate or luck!

Damn, it feels like I’m worrying over nothing coz I’ve already gotten a job while my other course mates are still struggling to get internship placements. So why am I complaining? Why am I being so troubled with this whole thing now? Gahh….I’m truly a worrywart, can’t deny that fact now!

(Note: I typed this post last night) ***3 hours after blogging and I’m still thinking about this matter. This is so not right! Aihhh… Anyway, I might as well blog the remaining things out. I’m currently still waiting for Company A to fax a copy of the confirmation letter to my Internship Coordinator (My boss told me that the people at the HR department lost my application/interview form…heeee…such a coincidence huh?). If Company B replies to my email before the confirmation letter of Company A arrives, then see yours truly reporting her first day at work at the former company. Sounds much simpler now...well, easier said than done! Aihhh...

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Being in different shoes...

Yesterday, I was reading the newspaper, precisely the business column when I read an article that gave me some deep thoughts. It was about a young (around my age) but very successful girl. Well, I was of course a bit jealous that she’s doing so well in everything. Don’t tell me you weren’t thinking that way…that’s just impossible coz the human mind has been constructed that way. So just shut up, stop criticizing about the green monster in me and listen read on while I share my two cents.

The article got me thinking…will there be a difference if I was born to a family like hers? Will I even be happy? From one perspective, she seems to be having everything completely in her bowl. She’s pretty, smart, born to a wealthy family (this is a significant factor coz financial problems will never exist), studied at a very prestigious world-class university (it was a dream to step my foot there when I was merely 16!), works in the highly-challenging corporate world but in a very interesting industry and everything else. Sounds perfect huh?

I’m definitely not complaining about my roots but I can’t help wondering about this. Is everything really pre-determined? For instance, if one’s parents were drug pushers, will he succeed or even be as successful as this girl I mentioned? I doubt…but maybe it’s possible…that child might probably do well later on in his life, perhaps around age 40? Hah…a bit old huh?

Oh come on…am I not making any sense? Here’s another example. If your father were a bigshot, where would you be now? You probably got all the time in the world to count dollar notes, to study at any of the oh-so-big-deal Aussie Universities or maybe other countries if you have the brain, to travel all the way to Disneyland three times a year just to shake Mickey’s hand even when you were only 3 years old, to dictate other people’s life and make them miserable, just anything similar to those. See the difference now? There’s a message to all these: Money speaks! I definitely can’t deny that.

Ok now I probably need to take back a few words. You probably thought I was dissatisfied with my roots. Oh no…not that! I guess the girl I mentioned earlier might probably be too good to be true. Maybe…just maybe, she’s not happy with the pressures her father set upon her. Like I said earlier, with money you can control people’s life. I’ve got a friend whose father said this to her, “I’m paying for your studies and everything else since you were born. So you better work with me, and take over my company upon graduation. I don’t care whether you have plans to marry or stay elsewhere but you better do what you’re supposed to do...” Isn’t that a terrible situation?

Now here’s my actual point. If you have everything in the world, but you don’t have the rights to decide on your own path, what you want or love to do, then it’s useless. I tell you…it’s of no use coz you won’t be happy. What is life without having the chance to take on the wheel to drive yourself to where you’re going? Right at this point, if I were to see it from another perspective, I should be glad that I’m not in the girl’s shoes (assuming that she’s not happy with the pressures and all that). Unlike her, I’m not a rich man’s daughter and I may not have the assured chance to go to where my dreams are (will still work hard for it though), but I’m thankful that my parents didn’t say, “You MUST do this and that no matter how….” That line itself sounds very much like ruining a person’s life.

So, I still prefer to be in my own shoes…albeit a little more difficult, but what is life without hardships, trials and errors? A bit clichéd eh? Hee…

Monday, April 02, 2007

Cat family?

I felt weird yesterday. Was it a mere coincidence or was it a sign that I have some kind of blood connections with the cat family?

Yesterday morning, I woke up early to attend the 8am class. I was still sleepy and obviously “blur” when I discovered landmines right in front of my hostel room, all the way to the dorm toilet. Mind you, I had to avoid landmines early in the morning just because the bloody cat decided to activate the bowel system and release its wastes at those places at ungodly hours and of all places, right in front of my door and beside my slippers!

The awful stench was enough to induce my bowel system too. It was such a coincidence that yours truly also had to endure diarrhea the whole day but of course I didn’t plant landmines everywhere I go! That would be disgusting! Yucks!

Anyway, I was thinking…I’ve had my share of uncountable encounters with cats over the years. Now I really wonder whether I was a cat last time. Erk, I know it sounds impossible and I actually don’t believe in the existence of “past life”…but who knows it could be true? Damn. I originated from the cat family? Why of all animals, a pussycat? Gahh…this sounds obscene now! Hee…

Another story about me and cats here...