"That One"

Do you believe that there's really someone out there who is "The Right One" for you? I wouldn't want to fantasize so much on that phrase, but I guess I've been a sucker in this belief for years! Some say that the search for "The One" is actually synonymous to looking for a soul partner. It's just like you're being a fool of yourself for years, falling in and out of relationships, just to find that someone. How stupid can that be?

Sometimes, you do wonder whether a certain guy or girl you're dating is "The One" or not. After some time, when you realised that he or she is not that one, you'll start to ponder whether the whole thing should be ended or not. Sounds familiar? Oh well, yours truly is a good example of the above scenario. Maybe, it's just a lame excuse that I get bored with certain peeps or things easily. Hehehe.

It just feels weird that the identification process could be done very fast. I don't know about you but I've always had this special instinct that tells me the right thing about anyone I meet. Even the horoscope and numerology book stated that I'm born like that! I'm not being superstitious but am I really born with a special talent or what? That's freaking scary actually...but it surely helps a lot. I could see the true colors of certain peeps easily, but for the rest, I need some time to analyze.

So, do you believe that "The One" really exist? I do...but I'm sure that the current one I'm dating is not "That One". Don't ask me how sure am I coz it's just inexplicable. Hehe. I took some time to analyze things about him and I know the answer now. But, think I need more time to be sure of everything. Oh well, it's nothing big deal actually coz it's clear that we're not really serious with each other yet. Besides, I've learnt from previous experiences that one shouldn't give too much, pour in too much hopes and feelings as it'll be a dead end once you fall down. It's difficult to carry yourself up again once you fall. So, it doesn't really matter that much for this one. I'll let time be the judge.

The other day, I read an article on Cleo magazine. It says that it's not wrong for a girl to keep her options open, and that she shouldn't feel guilty if she's dating more than a man. So, it means that I shouldn't feel guilty too! *Grins*

Are you men intimidated?

The new semester started a few days ago. As usual, the girls dominate the population of new students or first semester undergraduates. According to a lecturer, out of a total of 6500 new students, about 70% of them are girls. So, does that mean that we girls are smarter? Oh well, I’m not going to debate on that today but what’s wrong with the male population?

Over the years, I’ve come to realize that men are usually afraid of intelligent ladies. With a scientifically proven record, the male ego in men makes them less interested or rather intimidated by women who hold higher positions at work or earn better wages. It is definitely a bad news to the successful women out there but how true can this be? Well, I’m really curious.

Seriously speaking, have you guys ever thought of one thing? Ever asked yourself why some women are not interested in you? …or why is it that you failed to attract certain girls? Well, I’m not really stressing on gender equality or discrimination here, but don’t you guys feel a bit ashamed of yourselves that most of today’s women achieve more in life that you? It is definitely not true that we girls love to compare achievements, wages, etc. etc. but honestly speaking, it is really a great turn off if the man we date has a lower qualification, or worse still, a lower mentality than us.

It’s not that you cannot date or marry someone of a higher qualification, but can you guys at least change your mindset and be a real man? Even though there are many househusbands these days, oh please….are you going to put your male ego aside, put on the apron, cook, feed the baby and do household chores at home while waiting for your beloved partner who takes over the role as the sole breadwinner? You got to be kidding!

Let me tell you something. If you have that kind of dream, which is to be a househusband, then you better sleep in your dream forever. Even in this modernized society, not many women are able to accept a husband who stays at home. (This excludes people who works at home or telecommuting.) I’m not saying that men cannot do household chores (of course it would be better if the man is able to help out at home) but staying at home and be a househusband? It really sounds a bit sissy to me!

So, now that explains why there are so many ladies out there who prefer to remain single. I mean, if these women could financially support themselves, then why should they lower down their standards and simply date or marry any Tom, Dick or Harry for the sake of having babies, or maybe because it’s time for them to tie the knot before it’s too late? Don’t get me wrong. The ladies might have the intentions of dating or marrying someone of the same or a higher standard but that doesn’t mean they’re materialistic. I’d say they’re just being realistic. Since they could financially support themselves, they’re certainly not looking for men who only function as an ATM machine.

Well, just a piece of advice to you guys out there. It doesn’t matter how much you’re earning, but please…. for goodness sake, please change your mindset. You men should never stay static at the current comfort zone. Be ambitious (Men are basically ambitious….that’s a traditional fact!) and strive for more in life. I heard you mumbling that you’re very contented with what you have now. So, I think I better congratulate you, but you know what? One should never be easily satisfied with what he has until he reaches his retirement stage. Oh come on, are you going to stop making ambitious dreams and targets in life just because you’ve achieved the previous ones? That will only make you a non-progressive person, or another term, a loser. Seriously, if a businessman stops thinking of potential growth for his company, then there would be no improvement to his business empire and everything would remain the same till the time he dies.

Life is just like a business. We need to be progressive. So guys, heed my advice and you’ll soon be able to see the difference yourselves. Oops. I thought I’ve always been a feminist? Haha…of course I still am! I still support the idea that women should have the same rights and opportunities as men but I’m not in favour of the female domination in certain aspects. After all, what’s life without some challenges from the opposite sex? *Grins*

Stuck in the jungle...

I'm bored! There's nothing much to do here! It's just too bad that I can't watch the World Cup Finals tonight as I have classes tomorrow! Sheesh.

Damn. I miss my friends terribly. I miss him too. Oh...hopefully, I can go back to Penang on Wednesday! Haha.

Be right back. Till then, take care!

**Supports Italy!! **

Back to the jungle

I'll be back to Uni tomorrow morning. I checked the Students' Portal just now and found out that my "dear" roommate is going to share the same room AGAIN. Now, aren't you supposed to congratulate me? *rolls eyes*

Oh well, she's a nice and friendly girl....really...but I can't tolerate her untidiness. So, I guess there would be more posts specially dedicated to her. *Evil grin* There would be more posts about the lousy students there too.

Anyway, don't forget to miss me coz I know I have lots of peeps for me to miss too. Hehehe. This time I'll be there for four days, and back to Penang for three days each week (maybe once in every two weeks...it depends). See how much I love Penang now? Haha.

Oops. It's almost 6pm? I'm off. See ya! Remember to miss me! HAhaha.

Feelings of inadequacy

How often do you feel inadequate...or incomplete? Sometimes, this weird feeling would just strike me out of the blue, making me uncomfortable. Then, I would start thinking of myself as some kind of desperado living a life with something missing...and the funny thing is, I don't even know what's missing! Is there something wrong with me? Have you ever experienced the same kind of feeling?

I was listening to Michael Buble's songs when this peculiar thoughts of incompleteness took over. Maybe, that's a cue that I need psychiatric treatment as soon as possible! HAha.

Random things about myself

I'm going back to Uni this Saturday and I should be packing my things right now, but hmm...I just don't feel like doing it! So, I foresee that mum's going to continue nagging. Haha.

Anyway, here's a list of random things about myself. I'm not blogging it out to tell anyone anything. This post is merely written to remind myself for me to laugh at myself when I'm older.

I have four eyes. When I don't wear specs or contact lenses, I'm totally next to blind.

The body parts that I treasure most: My eyes, my hair, my lips.

I'm taller than most guys I know. This is a great turn off.

I'm not the sleek and slender type. That's why I identify myself as a walking pork chop.

I hate volcanoes on the face. They make my skin sensitive.

I look better with long hair. I'm fine with both straight or curly hairstyle, but not short hair coz I don't want to look like a mushroom head.

I can't live without wearing high heels. So, that explains why I prefer dating guys who are at least 174cm and above.

I love to play with colours. That explains why I love nail varnish and cosmetics so much but I'm still a minimalist when it comes to make-up. I prefer not to have a face as thick as a pancake. And my toe nails can go from dark blue to green to silver and gold. Did I mention I love my nails painted in navy blue?

I love accesories, especially earrings. My earrings are all long and dangly ones.

I could sleep for as little as 4 hours per day or as much as 13 hours a day. It depends. I'm just another pig.

I can survive on bread alone because I love it. Speaking of food, I'm not choosy when it comes to eating. I'm just a dustbin. I eat anything. I was taught not to be choosy when it comes to food. Thanks to my parents. Now, I'm trying to be choosy because I need to watch my food intake. *Grins* Anyway, anything with a sweet and sour taste should be awesome.

As for drinks, I always order the same few types. I'm also a coffee lover, only mocha, white coffee or cappucino. As for alcoholic beverages, Vodka rules.

I will be in my final year once this new semester starts. I will NEVER go back to that place or state for Masters or any job offer. Never.

I prefer to live in a busy, city life, with many cars and buildings but I really love places with beautiful sandy beaches.

I'm interested in residential properties, both landed and high-rise. I have been religiously stalking on the potential growth of properties in Klang Valley for the past one year or so. I might invest in properties next time if I'm unable to enter this industry to work.

I am an ambitious freak. Besides, I also believe that self-upgradation is a lifelong thing. So, knowledge plays a vital role in my life.

I'm stubborn and I don't give up easily. Once I've lost faith in someone or something, I will not turn back anymore.

I get jealous easily, that's only when it involves people I truly care. So, the guy I'm dating now should be smiling away since I turned into a green-eyed monster previously.

I listen to all genres of music but I love certain types of songs only.

I attract lots of older, mature men. Don't ask me why but majority of those I've dated are currently in their late twenties. I also have a few male friends who are in their thirties. Maybe, it's just my mindset.

I love travelling but due to time, age and financial constraints, I'm still unable to travel to certain places....but I will try to make it possible once I get a job.

Unlike the other girls out there, I could join my male friends to watch football matches. I know some of the players too! HAha.

I consider myself an attention seeker. Who would not enjoy getting attention from the opposite sex? So, if that bugger's not giving me enough TLC, maybe I should seek more attention from other people. *Grins*

I hate anyone who wants to lead a glamourous life when it is not a necessity. You know, the type that would desperately join the popular gang of students or anyone glamourous just to popularize himself. That's just plain stupid. That will only make a person a useless parasite.

I could turn into a cold-blooded sarcastic person once I'm pissed off or provoked. So, I "kill" people with hurtful words.

Five physical things I see when I look at men: Height. Eyes. Neck. Shoulders. Waistline or overall body size.

Five things I hate about guys I date: Too short. Immature. Smoking. Untidy. Too mushy. Over-sensitive. Low self-confidence. No vision or goals or not ambitious enough. (Oops. I mentioned more than five already? HAha...there are too many things to list down.)

I like kids and they love me. But, I'll never bring them to this world if I can't afford or am unable to feed and parent them. So, practise safe sex and use condom. Sheesh. Am I promoting for Durex now? *Rolls eyes*

I adapt to different surroundings easily. I could be dead serious or extremely crazy. It depends on the place and people I'm dealing with.

Some say I'm materialistic but I don't think so. I still feel that the right word is realistic. I know I'm being one.

Oops. Have I written too much? Think I better continue next time if there's anything else to add to the list of things about me. Shit. The mood has gone down the drain! I'm off. Ciao.

The green-eyed monster appeared...

Seriously, would you date someone if there's no feelings involved? I realised I wasted too much time pondering over all sorts of relationship related issues in my previous one. So, this time, I tried something different, which is less complicated. I'm dating a man without thinking too much. Heh. Even though our relationship is not really confirmed yet, we are just like any other couples you see out there. Go figure what I mean here, I'm not going to elaborate much. The only thing is, I doubt whether feelings really exist.

I don't know how he feels but I'm really unsure of my own feelings for him. Maybe, I'm just a chicken shit who is probably too tired of the previous experiences. So, this could really be a self-destructive method. I don't know. Yesterday, I went out with a cheemui and told her about this but she just laughed at me. I don't get it. Is it true that a third person sees things clearer than ourselves? She said I'm in love with this man. Well, no doubt he has a few of those qualities I'm looking for (He has the same interest as he's someone from the property industry! That's really surprising!), I'm still unaware of my own feelings. Damn. Now, I really feel like a sucker in relationship issues. Am I numb to all these things already?

Anyway, maybe a bit of jealousy tells the truth? HAha. I was quite annoyed with him yesterday night. We were supposed to go out after he finished work, but that bugger decided to play alongside Luis Figo and Cristiano Ronaldo, together with his younger brother, leaving me alone at home with a bloody toothache and stomach cramp! So, the green-eyed monster took over, and I was actually envious of the idiot box, the whole team of Portugal players and his younger brother? Well, is there anything wrong with me? *Grins*

I even thought of other funny things... "Maybe he's with another girl?" It was almost 2am and I was still irritated when he called. He suddenly became a littly boy, screaming with joy over the phone as his team won in the match against England. I could hear his brother cheering away. And that was it. He was really watching the match while I was thinking of stupid things. Haha. Actually, it doesn't make sense at all. I mean, why should I be jealous when our relationship actually started because of World Cup? *Grins* Erm, maybe what my friend said could be right? I still don't know. Time will judge everything. So, for the time being, I shall continue to enjoy all the attention and cherish the moments spent together. =)

I heard you asking whether this one will last? My answer is I don't know and I don't care much too. After all, there are still many other eligible men out there. *Grins* I don't want to ponder upon the much dreaded relationship issues for the sake of the uncertainties in the future. It makes me nauseous. What I'm sure of is that he's the current one but I'm not sure whether he is the right one or not. Time will decide. So, is that a good sign or a bad one?