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p/s: Heh? Are some of them gays? Eeuww...

A bigger head

*Looks into the mirror*

Gosh! My head looks a bit bigger now, or the brain...Heh! Thanks to too much of thinking for the past few days.

*rolls eyes*

Erm, after doing lots of brain analysis, I think the decision is kinda clear now...but I am not going to elaborate or declare it here. It is not a discrete answer. Might be something positive OR negative.

Anyway, enjoy the suspense! =P

*Yawn*

I'm sleepy but I can't fall asleep! Heh! *Yawn*

Poisonous confusion

Thank God that the exam's finally over and I'm back to civilization, at least for a two-month break! =D

Previously, the poison issue was bugging me and I thought it was stupid to think so much. And with that kind of attitude, I told myself, "Why think so much about it now?" and I cheated myself and turned my back on reality for a while... but, it seems that no matter how, I still have to face it.

I was "poisoned" and the venom has sort of created so much of confusion till I don't know what to do. Seriously, I really hate dealing with this kind of situation. Why must every decision be a discrete one, with either a yes or a no? Can't it be a "don't know"?

Damn. I really don't know. I'm not blaming anyone, not even myself but this is no joke. It is really like playing with poison, or worse, fire. You know that you'll burn yourself one of these days but you're still playing with fire just because you think it is worth playing, or something like that? Isn't that stupid?

I've always trusted my own instincts as it has never failed telling me what to do. It has never failed predicting what will happen too when it comes to uncertainties. So, should I follow my own instincts OR take a big risk and invest in a short-term investment, with the hope that it'll change into a long-term investment? Forget about the yield or revenue. I'm just wondering whether the investing term would last. If it won't, then why invest? Heh! Bloody hell. I just hate uncertainties.

The economic emotional slump

I’m always telling people I meet how great it is to be a woman. We could play multiple roles concurrently, by being a daughter, a sister, a wife and a mother. We bleed every month but we don’t die because of it! We could have babies! We have our own instincts and it’s usually 95% accurate, that’s only if the lady knew how to use it! We could do this and that, but sometimes, I admit that it sucks to be a woman. Really.

Like I mentioned before, a woman normally experiences emotional fluctuations during her monthly cycle. In the 28 days of her menstrual cycle, she would have a mixture of feelings…always leaving her feeling uncomfortable and sensitive. She may feel agitated for no apparent reason.

At times, she would be very confident with herself and during that time, nothing could bring the lady down. She feels on top of the world and could possibly succeed in doing everything, so to speak. She would usually feel normal but at other times, she would suffer from emotional breakdown. It might be due to a third party (family members, friends, boyfriends, anyone!) or just herself. It might be worse if the reason was unknown.

It sucks having to endure emotional fluctuations. It makes a woman very sensitive, even to the simplest or tiniest thing. She gets irritated over minor things. She gets annoyed. She feels nervous. She feels insecure. She suspects this and that and at times, she even doubts herself.

Bleh. I hate to admit it but the article I read recently about the linkage between psychology and women is just so true. Due to the regular emotional fluctuations, women often thirst for assurance and security. Generally speaking, every woman wants to be loved and feel wanted (by everyone or anyone, not just a woman’s significant other half). Heh! That’s not what I think but it’s just what the article says!

Damn. It’s not easy to be a woman. =/

Apples??

Do you still continue to eat an apple when you know there’s a possibility of it being poisonous?? Even if it’s not poisonous, you still got to take a bite to find out. And what if the apple’s really poisonous? Isn’t it stupid to bite an apple if you knew it’s poisonous? The poison might just “kill” you, leaving a hole at the organ where blood is pumped. So, no matter how, you would definitely throw the apple away someday, sooner or later…

Oh well, maybe you would convince yourself that the probable venom inside the fruit may not be harmful or destructive…so, would you take a bite to find the truth or be a chicken shit just by throwing away the apple (by assuming that the apple is poisonous) and get a new one instead?? And what if you had some kind of poison in you all the while and you actually prefer oranges instead of apples?

**This post has nothing to do with apples. It’s merely an example of… erm…something…yea, something. LOL! Oh yes! I finally have a little extra time to think waste! =D And by the way, I reckon the apple is not a good example coz I damn bloody hate this fruit! It was the culprit behind all the gastric pains I had!!! Heh! So who says an apple a day keeps the doctor away?? Bullshit!

Oh…think it’s time to go back and study for exams! Two more papers to go…

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Ciao.

Happy Easter, everyone! =)

What has that got to do with me???

So, you got yourself an Ah Lian a girlfriend but what's so big deal about that?? I appreciate your effort of messaging me on MSN just to crap on other inane stuff WHEN I WAS EXTREMELY BUSY preparing for my exams, bit around the bush then suddenly told me something I needn't know.

Really. To tell you the truth, I don't need to know what you told me. "Tell you something lah, I'm single but not available anymore!" What kind of crap is that? Seriously, I've never heard any real man saying such a lousy crap before. Alright, I'm happy for you that you've finally found a girl who accepts you for who you are, but hello??? I'm not blind ok! Your personal message of "I love so-and-so" on MSN tells it all and you really need not put in so much effort just to tell me something I don't need to know.

For the past two months, you've been showing off the pics of you and that girl while chatting with me and I thought that's just plain stupid. I mean, what's the main purpose of doing so? To make me jealous?? To gloat about your "success" or "popularity" amongst girls? Duhh...excuse me! If I were to tell the whole world about me and the other men I once loved, then there'll be no end to it. I've never really seen any guy doing things like that. Heh! After so many years, you're still the same....*sigh*

What you told me got me thinking and I finally realized why we never end up together last time. It was really a right choice even though you're quite a nice guy, really. Heh! Thank God, I made that decision. Or else, I would regret having a boyfriend who constantly reminded me about marriage (He said he wanted to marry me when I was merely 18! *gasp* Oh crap!), someone who indirectly blocked all my ambitious dreams and to my worst nightmare, a man who was possessive, controlling and full of jealousy.

So, since you told me about your so-called BIG news, I thought maybe it would be ideal to tell you that I'm on the same boat...but your reply made me suffocate for a moment. You thought I was still dreaming of.....of patching up and going back to you? Dream on... It was really the BIGGEST ever mistake I made to mail you after I lost that bloke. I thought it was better to seek refuge in a man who loves and appreciates me more than I do but guess it all happened when I was too emo. Yea, I know that was very self-centred but thankfully, I woke up just in time to stop all the advances and asked you to forget everything I said. So, are you thinking that you're still much sought after and that I'm still very much into you?? Oh, sorry...but that's just the past. Stop dreaming ok!

It was really annoying when you thought that I was still thinking about you. Oh come on, grow up, will you? Whatever that's over is over. Do you need to repeat everything again? And by the way, I need not report anything in my life to you too. Whatever it is, congrats for having a girlfriend finally and hope everything goes on smoothly for you and her. Please be reminded not to tell me anything between you and her coz I really don't need to know that...thank you!

Oh there's another thing I forgot to mention. It was very irritating when you kept asking "Who's that guy?". What's the point of telling when you don't even know him? Will you feel better if I were to tell you that he's a Degree holder and you're not? ...or tell you that I'm much happier to be with him? Bah... Just stop comparing or asking silly questions ok! You're only downgrading your own self.

And oh by the way, I might as well type it here so that everyone who reads my blog knows that I hate this....If you wish to tell me anything about your personal life, go ahead if you think it's not lame or stupid BUT never ask me about my personal life unless I willingly tell you! Just mind your own business ok! You really needn't brag and tell the whole world about things like, "I got a gf or bf already!", "I got deflowered or deflowered her or him already!", etc. coz that makes you very immature. I hate immature retards! Just grow up, will you?

Can you please shut the fcuk up???

No...I didn't say that though I was really tempted to. I was so annoyed with the bloody lecturer until I nearly utter that right in his face...but I just walked out of the class, while he's still teaching. Think that's already way too much!

He's a real idiot! This Saturday marks the first day of my final exams and his paper is the first one. So, in actual fact, this week is supposed to be the study week for all students but some kiasu lecturers prefer to mumble in class and teach stupid things just a few days before exams!

Today's supposed to be the presentation day for our assignment. Everyone was all prepared for the damn thing (erm...except me coz I'm not the one who's going to present), but the moment he entered the class, he continued teaching. Ok, there's nothing wrong with him being hardworking and so eagerly wanting to teach us but hello??? That idiot said this topic isn't coming out in exam and why did he teach?? So, a student asked, and all he said was, "Semua masuk", meaning every damn thing is coming out in exam.

Never mind. What made everyone in class frustrated was the way the idiot taught in class today. He taught the whole chapter, with 138 slides to be exact in just one and a half hours' time. And he was yakking like a bullet train. If he was teaching something as simple as management, I would be fine and no one would panic. He was teaching on waste water treatment, the last chapter in environmental engineering, with the hope that we could appreciate Indah Water's effort, so to speak.

When a girl in class asked whether a certain part is coming out in the exam, he said, "bacalah". The girl explained that we only have another 100 hours to study for the bloody exam but he ignored her. How on earth are we going to finish studying a total of 5000 over slides for the exam on this Saturday??? Heh?? The topics are super damn boring! Solid waste management, Hazardous waste, Waste water treatment, Air pollution index, Environmental Act (Section 1, 2, 3,....) , etc.

Oh what an idiot! When a student asked him questions, he'll definitely say the same few things. "Bacalah!", "Takkan tak tahu?? Ala...senang saja", "Oh lebih baik tak payah tanya, baik balik dan kahwin sajalah kalau tak tahu bahagian ini", "Tak tahu jawab?? Baik simpan nota di rumah untuk nenek baca!", etc.

I thought today's his last class for the semester and I won't be seeing his bloody face ever again, but I will still need to attend his fcuking class on Wednesday. Damn. I don't know whether I'll explode or not when I see his horse face again this Wednesday. Arrghh...

All the time, he thinks he's damn smart just because he has those two bloody papers called Degree from Japan and Masters from Thailand. Heh! big deal! Previously, I was offered a place by a university in Japan too. So how's that?

During class (just now), I was really tempted to:
1) Throw the thick Environmental Act book at his bloody horse face and feed him with my black sandals.
2) Walk up to him and say "Can you please shut the fcuk up???" right in his face
3) Tell him, "If you were that smart, you wouldn't be stuck here in the jungle without any job satisfaction, no future job prospects, whatsoever."
4) Drag him to the loo and flush his head down the toilet bowl with organic waste!
5) Tell him, "If you were suffering from a male PMS, then you better get the hell out of here!"
6) *Yawn* Tell him, "Your English sucks! I don't understand what you're talking about. Even my eleven-year-old cousin could speak better than you. So, go away!"
7) Tell him, "If your mother forced you to teach here, you might as well go back home and suck your thumb!"

Think I better bring a few extra Evening Primrose Oil capsules for him just in case he's still suffering from male PMS! Shit! Don't think it's a good idea to spend too much time to rant about him. Think I better go back and study for his bloody paper this Saturday. Will definitely throw a result he never expected at his bloody face! That's for sure!