Transition

At times, it can be so bright and everything seems to be in the perfect place. At other times, it feels like the darkness around you can just eat you up almost instantly.

I'm not having PMS or being emo. Sometimes, it can be a tad tiring when I think of certain things. Scary thoughts.

I actually hate this side of me. I would feel on top of the world and strong most of the time, but ocassionally, another side of me appears and all of a sudden, I feel so small. Intimidated by the things around me...the much feared darkness. Fear and insecurity. I hate this side of me.

Like I always said, of course there's hope...but it doesn't take a second or two to forget things and bring back mountainous of hope or faith. It takes time and courage to find it...just like a treasure hunt. It is probably yet another transitional period.

Yin Xing De Chi Bang (The Invisible Wings), by Angela Zhang

mei yi ci dou zai pai huai gu dan zhong jian qiang

mei yi ci jiu suan hen shou shang ye bu shan lei guang
wo zhi dao wo yi zhi you shuang yin xing de chi bang
dai wo fei fei guo jue wang

bu qu xiang ta men yong you mei li de tai yang
wo kan jian mei tian de xi yang ye hui you bian hua
wo zhi dao wo yi zhi you shuang yin xing de chi bang
dai wo fei gei wo xi wang

wo zhong yu kan dao suo you meng xiang dou kai hua
zhui zhu de nian qing ge sheng duo liao liang

wo zhong yu ao xiang yong xin ning wang bu hai pa
na li hui you feng jiu fei duo yuan ba

yin xing de chi bang rang meng heng jiu bi tian chang
liu yi ge yuan wang rang zi ji xiang xiang

~~~

Each time, I become stronger in loneliness.
Each time, I hold off my tears even when I’m hurt deeply.
I know I have a pair of invisible wings that will let me fly.
Fly over despair.

I will not envy that they have the beautiful sun.
I can see that the dusk is different everyday.
I know I have a pair of invisible wings that will let me fly.
Give me hope.

I finally see all my dreams come true.
The youthful pursuits. How the singing voice resonant?

I finally take flight. I look forward and am not afraid.
I would fly however far the wind takes me.

Invisible wings let dreams last forever.
I’ll keep one wish for my own imagination.

(Lyrics taken from other website)

I know I have a pair of invisible wings too...