It was very cold in there. Everyone's getting impatient and worried. But we can't do anything much besides waiting.
It was my first time in the Critical Care Unit. I went in with mum to have a look at grandpa, as it COULD have been my last time seeing him. He was put under sedation. The frail old man looked totally helpless with different kinds of wires and tubes all over his body. And there were two monitors beside him.
It was really eerie in there. I was surrounded by four patients (including grandpa) who were in the space between life and death. Their bodies were all swollen and looked greenish. In fact, my whole family couldn't recognise the old man when we pay him a visit. There was a strong stench in the room too, erm...probably the smell of sick people and those about to die?
The short visit in the unit became interesting when mum started to explain what were those wires and tubes for. I even asked mum a few questions regarding those wires, tubes and monitors. Mum's a very experienced senior nurse in the operation theatre and that made her answers too technical to be understood. But, she tried to explain in a much simpler way. Anyway, it was quite interesting as all those questions and answers were related to one of my childhood ambitions. (That's a different story altogether. Tell you all next time.)
It was my first time in the Critical Care Unit. I went in with mum to have a look at grandpa, as it COULD have been my last time seeing him. He was put under sedation. The frail old man looked totally helpless with different kinds of wires and tubes all over his body. And there were two monitors beside him.
It was really eerie in there. I was surrounded by four patients (including grandpa) who were in the space between life and death. Their bodies were all swollen and looked greenish. In fact, my whole family couldn't recognise the old man when we pay him a visit. There was a strong stench in the room too, erm...probably the smell of sick people and those about to die?
The short visit in the unit became interesting when mum started to explain what were those wires and tubes for. I even asked mum a few questions regarding those wires, tubes and monitors. Mum's a very experienced senior nurse in the operation theatre and that made her answers too technical to be understood. But, she tried to explain in a much simpler way. Anyway, it was quite interesting as all those questions and answers were related to one of my childhood ambitions. (That's a different story altogether. Tell you all next time.)
According to one of the surgeons, he said it's just a matter of time and that we should be prepared as he (grandpa) may "go" at anytime. We accepted the bad news and we are still waiting for the day to come. It's not that we want to chase him out of this world but the departure could at least stop what he has been suffering all the while and also lessen the burdens of the other family members. Somebody told us that he might be waiting for someone. Is it possible?? Oh, maybe he could be waiting for his friendly son-in-law to come back from overseas later today. Or perhaps he's waiting for his long lost second son who has been missing for years! I don't know and nobody knows.
Being stuck in a space between life and death is not a good idea. You suffer. The same goes to the family members. And everyone's worried. We can't do anything much besides getting ready, be realistic and start discussing about his funeral.
If given a chance, I would very much prefer to die peacefully, better to leave the world in my sleep while holding my (future) husband's hand in bed. Hehe. I know it's very self-centred to die first, leaving the man all alone BUT he's getting all my money! Oops, out of topic! Talk about this some other time!
Hopefully, everything's going to be fine. Time decides everything...
Being stuck in a space between life and death is not a good idea. You suffer. The same goes to the family members. And everyone's worried. We can't do anything much besides getting ready, be realistic and start discussing about his funeral.
If given a chance, I would very much prefer to die peacefully, better to leave the world in my sleep while holding my (future) husband's hand in bed. Hehe. I know it's very self-centred to die first, leaving the man all alone BUT he's getting all my money! Oops, out of topic! Talk about this some other time!
Hopefully, everything's going to be fine. Time decides everything...
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